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Thursday, October 13, 2005

last day II

i went through today.
feeling slightly happier
and a little comforted.
it's nice to know that alex's still a friend even after my constant neglect.
it's amazing sometimes,
how people still value a friendship
and how people still care
even when u didn't care.
thank you alex.
thankyou for not giving up on our friendship
when i did.
it's been a while.
hope to catch up with you real soon.
(guess that'll probably be in the hols, after the exams)
i drifted through service today.
and i realise how much i like mdm.
i think mdm's my favourite teacher.
after my 12 years of education.
i think mdm's my favourite teacher.
not cs tan. not mrs fong.
even though i still do like them and all.
i would like to find out what "reliance" means.
i would like to know her impression of me.
i hope it's reliance on God.
cause if it is, then i feel that i've been a good ambassador for Christ.
but i highly doubt it.
i hope it's not reliance on friends or material stuff.
cause it's just to piercing.
cause i believe it's true.
maybe i just rely on everything around me?
how about strength?
personal strength?
ah i don't know
i shall ask her on monday.
took many pictures today.
it's quite weird,
taking pictures with people i've never spoken to at all in school!
but yah.
oh well.
i don't know what to say.
it was just nice.
very nice hearing "we"
and running towards it.
and shouting "we"
and cheering it out loud.
i felt that i was part of council.
(not that i wasn't)
but it was a good reminder.
that i am a councillor.
and this are my buds.
the people who went through those tiring, trying, painful, yet fun times with me.
it's just that nice-ness being around them.
then i think about canoeing.
i don't know them anymore.
i didn't get to take a picture with margy, ben, liyanna.
people that i wanted to take pictures with.
i wanted to.
i just didn't find them.
sigh.
but anyhow.
i guess i chose my path.
i chose council over canoeing.
and i don't regret it.
cause i believe in both ways, it would have been worthwhile.
just that, after much thought, i probably would be able to contribute much more in council than in canoeing (small skinny build).
(by the way, i'm breaking out again, so irritating)
now where was i...
right.
but i miss the team alot.
i miss trainings. i miss the runs. i miss the dboating. i miss the friendships. i don't know you guys anymore. and it's sad.
except that i know sherman man likes his hair a whole lot!
haha.
yeah.
i guess maybe i would miss ac.
but i'm still not very sure about that.
i probably will miss the happy times.
but who wouldn't?
guess, people in ac really do make your ac experience a happy one or a sad one.
so here's to...

jiajia: thank you for spending this 2 years with me. it's been quite a ride huh. ups and downs. jumbled and knotted feelings and emotions. the little conflicts. the happy times. the constant reminders to each other. the honesty between us. thank God He gave me you. i think i wouldn't have survived ac without you. things would have been so different! there's so much i've gotta thank you for, but if i typed it all out, there wouldn't be space! you're the best. (: and you know it. (maybe i'll write you a letter after the exams.)

the rest in no order. (whoever who comes to mind)

chua: boo. cheeps. cheets. hum hum hum hum freeee... yyyyIeeaaaAnnnnnnN TaaaaaArrrrrrrrT. heh. ok i'll erase that if you tell me too. hope you don't get angry with me ok. hee. anyway. i just wanted to tell you. i can't stand you when you have your periods! it's so scary when you dao meeee... you know?!?! i get super scared and i'll sms everyone else and ask them "HOW?" but yah. all in all, i still love you. you're like the brains of us. you kinda help me think straight. you're always there and erm, you let me entertain you. you're always there to listen to me whine. you're there to go nuts with me. you're there to lend me tutorials. hurhur. you're like my logic. kinda. you kinda always show me another side of an issue and help me think straight. you rock. i wanna go visit your house and watch the jun matsumoto show(investigator one) and the erm class people kill each other show. always wanted to watch, but i think i never told you. thanks chua for being a pal. heh. (: cheerios chua. ho ho ho. haha. sounds so you. (: small flower prints yah? (:

boon: hello boonie. sometimes i wonder if i know you. cause there's always a period of time when we're very close and a period of time when we aren't. but i wanna thank you for the times we were close. the fun times shopping and doing silly facials. the times we could just talk. you've always been someone i can trust. (: and you're always so excited about birthdays! you're always like the major planner. thanks for all the effort you've put in to make everyone's birthday special. and the times when i'm alone and i need a friend to accompany to do stuff. esp. that day where i had to photocopy all my stuff and certify it and have lunch. and i made you late for consultation! but you didn't mind. (: you're very giving. but i understand there will be times when one will get tired. i do get tired too. but ultimately, jc's been good having a friend like you. (: thanks boon. thanks for the conversations we had at the stairwell, at the bleachers, at mos, walking around school. (:

mac: hello arthur butter macarthur. think lots of stuff has happened between us lately. i apologize if i did anything wrong. i hope i'll still be as good a pal as i was before. thanks for the dinners you had with me after tuition. thanks for the many walks to the bus stop after tuition. and the happy casual talk we had. the mrt rides. the bus rides. carrying the mega pack of toilet paper for me. hurhur. sorry for being mean to you all the time. and i don't stop even when you start whining "judy, why you so mean today????". heh. my fault! but i hope you're feeling better. you seen rather cold lately. not the mac i used to know. if you need help or anything else, please let me know. i'm willing to help if i can.

alex: hey, like i've mentioned above. i'm thankful for a friend like you. you didn't hate me even after we drifted. when i told you i needed time you were all too polite. i kinda felt really bad. it's my fault that we aren't as close as we were before. and i do miss our conversations about stuff. heh. there were times when i felt pretty pressures by your questioning. but other than that, you've always been someone who's willing to listen to me complain about everything. and even when we're not as close buddies as before, you still let me take pictures with you, and you continue to smile and say hi. sigh. i hope everything's alright with you. i hope today went well. take care alex.

chris tan: rah! hello! you've always been that crazy fun-loving pal. i still remembered our little conversation about canoeing and council. and how you said "erm, don't mind me saying ah, but i think council is better than canoeing. cause i think like canoeing... council's just better [on record]" hurhur. do you remember? i think you were eating tom yam yong tao foo. hurhur. yeah. i always enjoyed being around you. you never fail to crack me up. you know, i've got lots of photos of us at orientation doing silly things at your station, laughing and getting wet. heehee. even though we aren't as close right now, i thank God He let me know you. (: it's always been "no pressures" just "comfort" around chris. being around you always makes me feel happy. (:

lizzie: hello hello hello. my ex econs buddy! i'm sorry i dropped it. hee. i remembered you used to sit next to me at lectures/ tutorials and ask me stuff about econs, and i never really can answer you, cause i never knew my stuff! you've always been a good buddy. someone i could talk to easily. someone i could instantly click with. like the time when we had to survive alex's party together. hurhur. and when we went shopping together before chris tan's party. you're always so easy going. (: thank you lizzie for being that pal. (:

inez: hello! i know you never ever read this blog cause i think you don't know it exists. but yeah. i wanted to thank you for all the happy times in council. it's kinda weird, how we don't really talk to each other in schoo. but when it comes to council stuff or taking photos, it's a natural "INEZ!" "JUDY!" click kinda thing. we always end up doing stuff together. hurhur who was it who said we were evil twins/sisters? ew. we're not evil okk... we're nice. (: and i really wanna thank you for making the whole council experience even better for me. love you to the max.

pedro: guy pal. hurhur. yeah i always enjoyed your company. you're always happy happy. and you make me happy. it's been great working with you. and i enjoyed the walk we had to the mrt station and back. thank ped. thanks for everything. thanks for making me feel comfy and happy whenever i have to go for meetings and all. (sales! sit together!) and we'll end up sitting together somehow. hurhur. yay!

pramit: thanks for helping me so willingly. with the tape and all for passion ac. for the honest conversations we had. i never got to know you really deeply, but yet you've opened yourself to me. i bet you know nuts about me. but still you trusted me to share those thoughts. thanks pramit for trusting in me. haha. but i'm still not gonna "marry" you. haha. silly joke you should have started it! but it's good that it's forgotten (:

zhiguang: yo ho ho. my passion ac buddy. i realise i have at least 3 photos taken with you today! hurhur. cause we can't seem to remember if we've taken and we can't seem to take the photos right. hurhur. you've been a pal. i enjoyed praying with you and working with you.

jizeng: thanks for being so open with me. i like talking to you. you've been an encouragement and i thank you for listening to what i had to say about some stuff. anyway! thanks for being a good pal! rah! i like seah too.

yang-shen: thanks for being an "angel" to me. even though you didn't do much! hmph! haha. ok lah. kidding. but yah. hee you've been a friend. even thought your jokes aren't that funny and karen keeps laughin at them. heheee. ok lah. you're quite funny. anyway, yeah. heehee. it's always quite scary to see you on thursday mornings... walking towards sd1... and glaring at me and clutching both hands together. hurhur. i keep forgetting i'm sorry! sorry i haven't been much of a friend to you as you were to me. anyway! i still remember the first time we met man. i wanted you to pass this flat red sweet biscuit thing to evelyn and you ate it! argh! so i had to give her another one! my goodness... you pig. haha. (:

xiaohui and huijuan: just wanted to thank you both for making me feel comfy when i go out with you guys. no pressure. just hang out. yeah! it's nice. thank you for being so kind. (:

lenny: OI! haha. it's so funny how we can talk so casually and happily online but we're so shy around each other in school! but yah. i wanted to thank you for being a good good good friend. listening to me whine. and constantly making sure my work's fine. and i still remember your hamster stories ok. it's super funny lah. you're quite a joker. and no lor, you don't look scary or dao. haha. haha. and the stupid dreams we have. your mum returning my house bowls and jia and i scolding you. it's quite funny. anyway, you better stop eating your dinner at 11pm lah. later grow fat. hmm. yeah. thanks for the alliums and the ice cream and the origami. (:

jac: hello jac. i must say i've really really really enjoyed your presence. it's just nice smiling at you everytime we pass each other. you're a joy to have around. i like your sincerity. i've never seen that in anyone else. (: i like jac. alot.

grace chew: haha! thanks for going through all the sales stuff with me! heehee... our constant schemes and stuff... thank you for being there, and making sales meetings and sales stuff so much more fun. remember us sleeping on the sales room floor? unglam man. (:

paul lock: thank you. you've been a good friend. hee. asking me how i am when i look unhappy. helping me out with passion ac stuff. being patient when i'm ever so forgetful. hurhur. yep. you've beena pretty good council friend. thanks!

sarah and jiaxi: I DIDN'T TAKE PICTURE WITH YOU JIAXI! sarah and jiaxi, i wanna thank you for being there at my birthday and for making me feel happy whenever i'm around you. thanks- jiaxi, for opening your house when i was being pretty rude at intruding into your home. sarah thanks for making me happy. i remember j1, we used to come to school early and we used to talk in the morning. (: you're always a nice happy person and i like your nice happy smile. (: special thanks to the both of you for the pretty bracelet. i like it a lot a lot. thanks for entertaining me at the void deck when it was all so boring just sitting there and stoning. heehee. you guys are funny (:

del poks: i wanna thank you for the happy happy happy happy year we had together. i miss it a whole lot. thanks for listening to me and always being willing to hear me out. thanks for accompanying me to cut hair and stuff. thanks for sharing those happy happy days. i really really miss you. i wish we weren't so far right now. hope you get my little gift to you, locked up in my locker. (: miss you. i wanted to add something else to it, but i forgot to brin git today. hope you remember to open my locker tmw (:

ee ghim: you smelly boy! you keep laughing at me. veyr funny is it? anyway, i wanna thank you for our little dinner and lunches together and our frank and honest conversations. i like talking to you... sometimes. hurhur. not all the time ok. cause sometimes youare just soo annoying! BAH. haha. ok lah. thank you for being that pal and sharing those happy conversations with me.

canoeist: i wanna thank you guys for one year of happy days. the trainings, the ups and the downs. the wins. and i refuse to say we had an loses. cause in every defeat we gain something and that makes us winners. i'm proud of you guys. you guys have come so far. miss you guys a whole lot. feels like we're so far apart right now. like i don't know nadim anymore. i miss weiling. i miss margy's smiles. i still talk to sherman man, and he's still annoying. hurhur. i miss ben, chong, yihang, kenny, zhe zhe, liyanna, auggy, jas, ter, yina, su, winny, ashley, uncle wei yuan, tiw lips, ... and the list goes on. i miss ted too. i miss nick too. well kinda. yeah. oh well. but i wanna thank each and everyone of you guys for making my j1 year so much more rewarding. (:

i know there's many more to thank. but i can't keep going on. hmmm. yeah. i'm really tired. and i've been typing this post for 1 1/2 hours. i'm getting hungry.
1800- 1725.
thank you for everything. (:

Dear Lord, thank you for giving me such good pals.
Amen.

[ Jude whispered ][ 6:00 PM ]

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